| 2008. not quite a good year
my birthday
friendship falling apart
marriage event
the break ups
the lies
the tears i had this year is more than the year derek and i broke up honestly
its been long that i thk i will never cry like this ever again.
but yes i did, all over 2008, ive been crying for everything that bad happened
the way you treated me, the way you talked to me, the way you ignored me
when i think about it, i duno what made me thru all these
how strong a woman can be when it comes to love
speaking of love, i duno if i still know how to play this game.
I've been struggling alot too this year, feeling vs what i want for life
feeling did beat what i want for life for the whole freaking year
i was like, hell yeah, i love this guy like no matter what
and now, as im turning 21 in 2 months, which means i will be globally recognised as an adult in 2 months
i need to think about what i really want.
so i took a break from all those craziness ( you can say i was intrigued to all the shopping things tho)
i went away from hk to think
hope i got an answer hen im back
later
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| Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy
Wouldnt it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice |
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| Its not who we play the game with, its how we play the game I just finished reading leeting's xanga, its undeniably sweet
I m sooooo jealous  but ofcoz im glad that leeting finally found that someone!
I mean,
when was the last time i actually cry hug somebody saying how much i scared of losing him
when was the last time i really feel like i totally belong to somebody
when was the last time i feel like the happiest, the most spoiled woman on earth
when was it the last time i think i can lose everything but you
when was the last time i depend totally on somebody but not even myself
Sigh
Rose said i always knew how to play the game and how to play it smart
maybe
but that may not be as good as it seems
somehow i wonder if i still hvnt learnt my lesson, i might be able to feel more, experience more, give more and take even more.
who knows? i cant help it anyway |
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| why do i care so much.......arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
suck!!!!!
this is totally non-sense
and i hope i wont be out of my mind.
sigh. |
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